Missing Direction

Now is not the time for me to blogging,
but i dont know how to solve my problem..

First week of opening school had passed, everyone is seem like refresh and
become 'stronger' after the come back from holiday
And i am scare of them..

Everything is back to the origin, i am alone when i in the class
Really dont know the problem is come from me or what..
i can join them when they are fooling around,
they always speak lauder, so i sure lose them, i just sit behind
and laugh with their jokes

Sometimes i try to be fun with them
but when i try to say something funny or jokes
totally no respond afterward, ok~ maybe that is not funny at all
i try to use 'their language' to make fun
but same result
Sometimes i also feel that, why i want to use people language ?
that is not me ! not a real Z !!

I totally dont know how to solve the problem
on the other way, i am worry that my friend will criticise me
say me i am not friendly and arrogant

To avoid these kind of things, i had helped them a lot
UNFORTUNALY, they always give me the respond that make sad
for instance, my friend told me that he cant use the software
i try to ask my other friend, brother, even explode myself to answer him
finally, he can use it but he DID NOT let me know
luckily i heard it , if not i am the idiot to help him, meaningless
Now is my turn, i cant activate the software, i told my friend
what is his respond ??? NO ANSWER
he asked me how to use the software ? ask this ask that CONVERSELY
FINE ~~~ i am fine ~

The most thing that i worry is my studies
i cant lose again ... cant lose...
they are strong, everyday they look relax and enjoy
in real, they have done the work at home
i am worry ... thats why sometimes i will suffer with my fast heartbeat

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Unbelievable & Unexpectable

Yesterday ( thursday), i was happy that my penang's friends
invited me to have lunch together !!
After finish our western food for lunch,
i sat my friend's car, SMART 2, went back to college

Walau... his car is so so so different, like alien's car, hahaha
interior totally different
But one thing is good for looking only, the car is too small,
impraticality (shh~ dont let him know) hahaha

Because of my brother could't picked me yet
so i went to their department (Fashion Department) to wait ~

Then they suddenly said want to bought some fabrics
they invited me went there together again
since i had to wait my brother, so i followed them

After that, they brought me to eat fig jelly ice ( 爱玉冰) at the roadside
My first time again
My friend and i went down to bought,
my god !!! i got shocked !!
there are no flies but BEE !!!!! many type of beessssss !!!
then we ate in the car..

Finally back to college again, accompany my friend a while then back home ~
Always follow different friends will learn some different things
As long as we will not learn the bad. I like it !
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My diploma 2nd semester's result had came out
This holiday i am worry about my computer studies !!
Yesterday, i went to check it
PASS !!! totally unbelievable
i had think that i will fail the subject, because i cant finish it during the exam
and now i got A-

While the subjects that i sacrificed my slumber time
done it very hard and expect the subject will better than last time
the kindergarten's drawing, then get a better result
But many things happened unexpectable, i get B+ ONLY !!!
Argh !!! My friends that so so one , get A !!!!
The worse thing is my GPA, my god !! 2.8 only !!!
Last time more than 3.2, now ~~ 3.3 is the highest
All of us are drop..

New semester is coming soon, i cant lose again
Need to work very very hard !! Must get improve ~

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Betrayed by Selfishness

Again and again
I am always try hard not to care about it
but selfishness always betray me instead

The day we having lunch, shopping and buying materials together
were over, that all are present tense
Dont know why i still cant let it go

When i saw u treat her better than me, i will go away
Although i am always console myself that,
u dare to treat me follow yr expression
do whatever yours pleases to me, tell me your problems are because
we know each other longer.

I am selfish enough
I always think that what you done for me
u cannot do twice to others
But in real, i cant control u, i dont have the title to do that
(this bad thinking not only on him, but everyone )

Another selfish-minded is
last time when we went to KL
you sat beside me in the bus
But now, u are sitting with your beloved
on the way to Genting ...

In fact, i am not fancy to him
I am just ... used to together with him
and now everything are changing ...

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Hard Period

Last two weeks, i am rushing my assignments like hell...
Totally no time for me to rest
i had one week no even touched the tv and newspaper ~

i spend more than 12 hours to do my assign..
late slept and woke up earlier
this lifestyle persisted for more than one week...

Somemore, my first experience
before the presentation, i only slept for one and the half hour !!!!
i done my work until 6.30 in the morning,
i heard my mum was woke up but i am not even sleep yet !!

During the morning 4-5am, my hands and legs were shaking
i was very scared, why suddenly shaking like that...
and also my heart beats rapidly ~ suffer !!!
maybe i was not restthe whole night ~

After the day presentation, i felt relax ~
Finally i slept at 8.30pm until the next day
14hours of slumber to recover the sleepless night..

And now ~~~~~
Finally i am holiday ~~~~~~~~~

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A meaningful day !!

Same as usual, i drove to college and parked at my favourite area --- yellow line

During the lunch time, my friend phoned me to move my car

because the police was came to wrote the samban

then i quickly ran down and moved my car...

I U-turn for 2 times, still dont have a proper place

i saw my classmates and lecturer were crossing the road

i asked them where to have lunch

they asked me weather want to follow them to SUBWAY or not

i am ok.... after that they asked me can be the driver ...

hahahaha, actually they invited me was used to sit my car...

ok ~ this is the first time, i carried my 3 classmates and lecturer to having lunch together

hehehe !! happy !! at least i done something

After arrived SUBWAY, my cute lectuter paid the parking fee for me...

Thanks, sir !!

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Today is a special day

my lesson is until 9.30 PM !! cool !!!

At first, my class is until 8pm, but my classmates want to extend to 9.30pm

so that we no need to make up the missed lesson on other day

they want sekali terus

i am ok too... that is cool and great, i like it !! hahaha

So, today we were doing assignment for 12 hours in class !!

We ate nothing for dinner ~

Finally my friends cannot endure the hunger

they went to buy fruitssss

we satisfied our hunger with fruits only ~

what a special day..

Dont know why i was still spiritedness all the time..

Had the mood to continue my works

although all of my friends was started to fooling around and having fun

they sang the kids' song, discuss funny topic and funny incident happened ~

After that, my parents on purposely came to picked me up..

Wah... Today my time is fullfil and meaningful...

At least i had done something ~

What a special day !!!!

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