烂透了

自从那天（21st）起，
我觉得我烂透了 ！！！

爸都没有跟我说话，直到今天
可是，一波未平一波又起
当他能和我说话时，我又要他‘签证’了

明天要和三个男生去找建筑材料
之前就商量着了，只是拿不到护照
我早已有心理和准备
也很担心只有我一个女的

刚才一开始，我和理和气地，笑笑地，跟他讲，他不理睬
第二次，我在大家面前讲，他假装听不到
第三次，我到他的房间找他，我说：‘爸，明天我要出去’。。。
他不应我。我妈就说：‘他在跟你讲话，你没听见吗？’
爸竟然说：“她（我）是在跟你（妈）讲话，还是我？”

我没话说，只是心很痛，很痛。。
强忍着眼泪，再说一次。。
始终不回答，只说以后什么事跟妈讲好了
。。。。。

妈之前也没直接答应，我知道他们在担心
我，却答应了朋友

突然，妈进来了。讲着讲着，想着想着
我还是换回他们没有同意，没有签过的护照
就这样，我又跟朋友道歉！

还有，很不巧，很不巧的，巧克力打来 ！
妈还坐在我旁边，接咯，过后，哥在我后面
我没说什么，只是‘嗯，啊，哦’的回答
挂了，妈知道是他，因为只有他酱晚才打来
妈就问：‘为什么还跟他讲电话，你不是很讨厌他的吗?’

现在，知道我烂的地方在哪里了吗？
整个放假我都烂透了，做一些不正当的东西
是时候反省反省了。。

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What's wrong with me ??

What am i doing now ???

Last night, i was decided to go to college to find my lec.
then i thouhgt that it is unworthy to just a few minute then come back again
so i invited chocolate to have lunch with me
but he is busy then ok

I am still chatting with otherss during the midnight

While, during the afternoon, my sister in law's youngest brother
not only chat with me, but my relatives too
We never talk to each other before and we are seldom to meet too
but msn and fb are always the '''best''' mass media
and also is the 'dangerous' place for me

Suddenly, he invited us to watch Avotar
we were shocked, we are not well known each other
but he can invited us
ok, i rejected him
because i dont like to watch movie ~ and feel weird too

From that second, i feel like i was lost control
Unexpectedly !!!! i invited him to have lunch with me
he can attend wo
After that, i thought just both of us only
so i invited my cousin too
Ok, everything was decided during at the MIDNIGHT

At this MORNING, i told my mum
and i made a BIG BIG MISTAKE !!!!!!
i FORGOT to tell my dad

Everthing dead at here
During the way to back home, i told my dad i want to droped my cousin
DIE !! He was angry why i did not tell him my cousin went along with me
As usual, i was shaking again ``
we were thought how to explain to my dad from SURISE to his office

After arrived his shop, he just keep quiet, his face was so so black
this is harbinger of a 'storm'
we were scared~ but i was decided to tell him the truth

On the contary, i have not explain to him yet,
i dont know how and when to 'open mouth'
He also not even ask me anything
but my sister had told him we ate lunch

Now, he is think that i lie him
i do not go to college instead of i han out with my cousin !!

YO ~ i feel that i very cheap
how can i hang out with a guy that i just chat with him
and how can i did not tell my dad
how can bring along my cousin !!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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何谓真心

昨晚，巧克力sms我，说那些有的没有的

sms 到懒惰了，就打给他直接说晚安好了，可是！！！！！

我们的晚安似乎很长气 ～～～ 需要一个小时半 ！！！

死定了，讲到凌晨三点 ！！

就说到他喜欢的对象，我不知道她是谁，只知道他喜欢她很久了

讲着讲着，将到我这里

PS: 其实，我在吉隆玻逛街时，我遇到了‘他’

就这么的巧，一开始我觉得这是缘分，我即紧张又兴奋

可是有些东西不是我想象的完美，从头到尾，他没有看我一眼

算了，顿时感到我的兴奋慢慢的转变到（一点点的）伤心

相信吗? 这些东西我都跟巧克力讲了

他是个超级活跃的人，他交友很广也很好学

我承认，我在他的身上学到很多东西

因为他很喜欢跟我讲经，人生道理，分享他的经验

说道分享，就是没完没了，他会把百分百的东西跟我分享

所以他很爱讲话，所以知道我曾经block他的原因了吗

就是这样，他也希望我会和他分享我的东西

问题是，我不会拿出百分百吧！我想我有我的隐私权

说着说着，谈到真心

不管做什么事，他都是用心对待，他也会先看人，扫描过了才拿出他‘何谓的真心’

他说他只跟我一个人，可以聊到这样多话题
他也说他希望我是用心跟他交朋友 ！？

掛电话后，他又传简讯给我：

‘老实说，我希望你到未来是一个可以交心的朋友

不会在后面重伤我的人，真的。。。’

天哪 ！！我还第一次收到这样的简讯叻

我不知道该觉得开心，有这样的朋友

还是惭愧，因为我还是有所保留，没有交出百分百的真心

不过在我的字典里，没有百分百的定义，只要觉得双方都不会受伤

开开心心，和平和气就好了

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Go Away !!

Today, after presentation i hang out with my classmate to Gurney ~
For our culture, the one way to 'release' before the holiday is to
SHOUT at Redbox !!!!

After having cheaper economic rice, four of us went to sing

I am always the crazy one when enter to the room
i sang a lot and a lot, almost i hold the mic all the time :P
shout to release mah, although my voice is husky, hehe

I am always attract by his voice, because his sound is ok la, not bad lo
although we are often sing together
but.. when i sang the song that give me the 'feelings'
i will recall ... the devils were spining around

i already dont have the feelings for a long time,
so please, please go away...
We are friend ...

During the way back to college,
he called, 'mum ~'( in front of her beloved)
At first i were dont know bacause i am not in the condition
Then he keep calling again, i were get shocked
how dare he calling me like this in front of her, i scare she will...
maybe i think too much but
i am feel better at that time ~~
I am a crazy women !!!

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Happiness

Yeah ~ my brother is married !!!

We have a sister-in-law and also look like i have a big sister

Very very happy

pretty sister-in-law in stay in our home

We are family !!!

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